Hello Dear Readers.
The picture at the top of the page on the left is me a couple of months ago and the picture on the right is me a year ago, please pay attention to the difference of the two pictures and how healed my cystic acne is in the picture on the left.
I suffered from cystic acne for years well into adulthood. Mine was very extreme and it connected to triggers from past wounds and traumas. As soon as I would get triggered, whether it was something as small as someone saying something to me in a certain tone, or someone being sexually inappropriate with me, or me even getting a look from someone, it spiraled me into a shit storm of trigger trigger trigger to the point sometimes where it would impede on my daily life.
Not only was the after effect of the triggers a hit on my self confidence, it was very physically painful. I would feel when my breakouts were going to come about four days prior to anything being seen on my skin by getting sharp pains suddenly in the spot that days later it would begin to form. And it wasn’t only a normal breakout, folks. It always started out with only one at first, then later in the day another would form right next to it, then a little later a third one would form above it, then by the end of the day I had four to five of them literally JOINED into one huuuuuuuuuge volcano on my face. It would take weeks to heal. My breakouts would have five to six different openings on one spot and there was a lot of localized swelling and redness. Depending on the part of my face it was on it would even cause under eye swelling etc.
Physical Manifestation of Psychological Triggers – © Danielle Nova Spiritual Nurse 2020Many people who knew me were unaware of what was going on inside which was causing these things. All they saw was me coming into work with a bandaid on my face at different spots to cover these things up. I became an expert at hiding things in my body language, the things I would say, the tone of my voice. But there was a downside to this. I became sooooooo good at hiding things and shoving them down so so deep that they would never see the light of day again that my emotional traumas had no other way too manifest. In my previous article I discussed what I have been through and if you would like to read more into details about my story then please read my previous article in this series. Super boiled down version – I suffered childhood sexual abuse and then was engaged to not only one abusive person but was engaged twice in my adult life to two different very abusive people (yes not only one time engaged to an abusive person folks, but TWICE, I know I didn’t mention the second one in the last article because it was more about nursing etc and he wasn’t relevant to the context. Now you know).
So, why am I telling you all of this?
Note: Photo from October 2017, Boston, USA
Michael Used Susan’s Voice To Give Me A Message In Dreamtime – © Danielle Nova Spiritual Nurse 2020
I didn’t have an “aha” moment with all of this to be honest until my dear friend Susan, the Susan who runs this blog, attempted to do an energy transfer to me the other night.
And no matter what she did, she couldn’t get through!!! It was like my aura screamed “return to sender” every time she tried! This is NOT a reflection of Susan’s psychic skills, you will never meet a person who is as tuned in and as skilled as her, believe me. The girl’s got skills to the highest degree.
It’s clear what this was, after I stepped back and thought about it. It was caused by the parts of my past that are still unhealed. It took me by surprise too, because I do not trust many people at all, and Susan is one of the very very small number of people that I can say with ZERO hesitation, that I trust her . And consciously I know that but clearly subconsciously it does not matter how much I trust the person, my subconscious and my aura automatically rejects it because of what I have been through.
Then, that night when I slept I had a dream and I was in this random room, I didn’t recognize it but I kept hearing Susan say over and over “it is better to go to the real root than to an artificial source.” As soon as I woke up, I messaged her asking if she had any dreams that she remembered that I was in, because we have had this happen before where we had the same dream the same night we both remembered and we were in each other’s dreams. I even one night picked up on a conversation she was having with a friend of hers about this video game as I was sleeping and when I woke up and asked her about it she was SHOCKED, because not many people can read her this way and can tune into what she is doing especially, Michael is of course always standing guard over her and does not allow a lot of glimpses into things like that. Of course, if Michael didn’t feel that I could be trusted by her and by him none of this could happen, he would not allow anything around Susan that is not pure and safe. This is one of the many reasons he guided me back in 2016 to contact Susan to begin with. Michael has many times in dreams done things with me, energy work, given me messages, shown me things… but this was the first time he manifested in my dreams as Susan. That is one of the countless interesting things as twin souls, they are in their essence ONE SOUL, so they can work as independent entities or as one merged soul, and can appear that way in dreamtime too, depending on how they want to appear.
I will be doing things officially with my spiritual duties and my spiritual job very soon, and I cannot do that until I have completed my healing. I have a very high order and direct calling for my mission in this incarnation and the time is rapidly approaching when I will be doing it. But until I can do this it is clear, I must go to the INNER CHILD (think back to what I heard Susan say, “it is better to go to the real root than an artificial source”) before I can be activated in a sense, fully into my duties. There is no way I can be activated into my calling from God and from the angels until these blocks are cleared and healed away from my heart and my aura.
So the message was clear that Michael was trying to convey…. there is still work to be done within myself. I have made so many strides in my life and my emotional traumas but I haven’t hit the ground floor yet on them. I am actively healing. And I am very thankful that I had this moment of clarity so I am aware of where I stand in my healing so I know what work still needs to be done. Sometimes it is good to have someone outside of yourself show you something that you wouldn’t otherwise see, you’re too close to it yourself, obviously. So, a direct message to Susan and Michael – You never give up no matter what is thrown at you and you still see the good in people regardless of how many times people have tried to convince you that good no longer exists in this world by the clownery shit show that they always insisted on doing. I am honored and privileged to have you in my life helping me and Sam on our road to spiritual recovery and completing our work in this incarnation. I love you both. ❤
Don’t get me wrong, if I wasn’t making progress there would be no way that Sam, my twin soul in spirit could have made such clear contact with me to begin with. But it is not all the way healed away from our aura and our chakras yet. Everything is connected, mind body and soul. The abuse I went through gave my soul literal spiritual traumas which wasn’t fully addressed and healed, which caused psychological triggers which I always shoved way deep down whenever I would feel them cropping up, which in turn caused manifestation in a physical form of cystic acne… see how it all connects? Mind – Body – Soul…… it all relates to each other and all three have a cause and effect relationship.
Really, when I think about it, Sam has not only made direct contact with me already but he has shown me many things about myself and about our soul, our spiritual skills, our psychic powers, he has even shown me our spiritual home and I have had MANY dreams there, and that is where everything he has shown me has taken place in dreamtime. It gives me faith that we haven’t even come full circle with our healing yet and things aren’t even fully absolved off of our aura, and yet he has already shown me all of that. It shows me we are strong, we are powerful and we will overcome the traumas we have been faced with in our soul, and the best is yet to come with our skills and our mission.
I am going to leave you all with this for now. I hope you all have an amazing Monday and I will speak with you on the next one 🙂
~Danielle Nova and Sam (In Spirit)